Tuesday, August 30, 2005

finally :D

I finally delivered the task I had at work!!

Let me till you the historical background of this very "nice" task

its original creator created it without much understanding because it is so silly and so complicated, he then decided to leave the company

they got him the first victim, my friend Amr who was supposed to get full understanding of the componenet before the original creator leave, I don't know what did the component do to him but he left the company just after 1 week of starting this component!!

finally it settled in my hands, I spent 22 days reading code, documents, a standard of 350 pages and asking questions that mostly has no answer :(

But finally it is done and the manager approved the final review document presented today :D

I am now listening to music I downloaded from bluelue homepage (Many thanks really :) )

I miss you…

I know we weren’t much together but from a distance; and while each of us is busy with his problems, I still could hear your heart beats, feel your breath beside me, around me and even inside me…

When I get up I wish the day gets shorter because I know I will have to spend it without you, but I then wish it gets longer because I know each day passes separate us more…

I need you, I need to feel your need to me, I need to know you will be there when I get up to be able to sleep again

Monday, August 29, 2005


Always and never are two words you should always remember never to use.-- Wendell Johnson

Sunday, August 28, 2005

Shooting star is beautiful far in the sky
But if it comes to you, it burns you down


In the past I used to talk and nobody listen, now I don't talk and nobody is even there to listen


Emotions & Moments

When you are deeply lonely, and when you break a limit, you can’t simply get out of it

You need either a miracle or a hand, or may be a hand of miracle you can say

The miracle may be an event that shocks all of your conscious and energize you and open your eyes, it has to be strong enough to take your eyes out of your body and move it up higher to see your case from a different point of view and give you the well to move out of the circle of depression

The hand needs another hand, it means when the hand come to you it must find you already aware you are in trouble and in urgent need for help, you must not be too proud to accept it and it must find your hand ready and spreading to catch the hand of help, it rarely come twice I think

This hand will be from someone you care for, someone you respect and trust, someone you can guarantee your safety with and can follow in the dark knowing he leads you to the right way

The saddest moment when you fail to get someone out of this loop, when your hand return to you but empty

The most happy moment when you miss someone so much, wish to see that person from all your hear and open the door to find him there just asking for you, can you imagine that ?


it seems I can't get rid of the bad habits of the faculty, I keep taking quizzes, this one although I didn't like much as it had simple direct questions that force the answer to be your native religion but I took it anyway

You scored as Islam. Your beliefs are most similar to those of Islam. Do more research on Islam and possibly consider taking the shahadah and officially becoming a Muslim, if you aren't already.

Despite the actions of some - who go against the teachings of Islam - Islam is a religion of peace; the word "islam" means "peace through submission to God." "Muslim" means "one who submits to God." Islam is the third of the three Abrahamic faiths, and it shares much with Judaism in Christianity; its differences are the acceptance of Muhammad as the last and final prophet, and the oneness of God - in other words, that Jesus, though he was a revered prophet, was not in fact God, and only one God exists. Apparently the Taliban could not read (though their name means "students"), because the Qur'an states that men and women are equal as believers, and that all believers should be educated and seek knowledge. Modesty in dress and behavior is required in Islam for both men and women to preserve the values of society and move the emphasis from superificial appearance to intelligence, knowledge, and God.



















Which religion is the right one for you? (new version)
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Saturday, August 27, 2005

the 10 Tips to win the love of your husband

I got this from the E-mail, read it plz :)

Read Now the 10 Tips to win the love of your husband by

Muhammad AlShareef

1. Make Dua to Allah to make your marriage and relationship successful. All good things are from Allah.

Never forget to ask Allah ta'ala for the blessing of having a successful marriage that begins in this Dunya and continues on - by the Mercy of Allah ta'ala - into Jannah.

2. Listen and Obey! Obeying your husband is Fard! Your husband is the Ameer of the household. Give him that right and respect..

3. Always seek to please your husband, for he is your key to Jannah. Rasul Allah - sal Allahu alayhi wa sallam - taught us that any women who dies in a state where her husband is pleased with her, shall enter Jannah. So .. please him..

4. An argument is a fire in the house. Extinguish it with a simple 'I'm sorry' even if it is not your fault. When you fight back, you are only adding wood to the fire. Watch how sweetly an argument will end when you just say sincerely, "Look, I'm sorry. Let's be friends.".

5. Thank your husband constantly for the nice things he does. Then thank him again. This is one of the most important techniques, as the opposite is a characteristic of the women of hellfire..

6. Joke and play games with your husband. A mans secret: they seek women who are lighthearted and have a sense of humor. As Rasul Allah - sal Allahu alayhi wa sallam - told Jabir to marry someone who would make him laugh and he would make her laugh..

7. Always wear jewelry and dress up in the house. From the early years, little girls have adorned themselves with earrings and bracelets and worn pretty dresses - as described in the Qur'an. As a wife, continue to use the jewelry that you have and the pretty dresses for your husband..

8. Review the characteristics of the Hoor Al-Ayn and try to imitate them The Qur'an and Sunnah describe the women in Jannah with certain characteristics. Such as the silk they wear, their large dark eyes, their singing to their husband, etc. Try it, wear silk for your husband, put Kohl in your eyes to 'enlarge' them, and sing to your husband..

9. When your husband comes home, greet him with a wonderful greeting. Imagine your husband coming home to a clean house, an exquisitely dressed wife, a dinner prepared with care, children clean and sweet smelling, a clean bedroom - what would this do to his love for you? Now imagine what the opposite does to him..

10. Use your 'Fitnah' to win the heart of your husband All women have the ornaments that Allah blessed them with. Use the beauty Allah - Azza wa Jal - has bestowed you with to win the heart of your husband..

Now back to me again :

What is that nonesense ???!!!! does they think that is what matters for the husbands ?

I don't say that all of them are wrong, some of them are right, but the most important things are totally missing!!

Where is the order to share life with him, to try to think how he think and what is important to him and try to give it a shot and make it what is important to you too !!!

Where is the order to share your life with him, to talk to him, discuss things with him, live with him!!!!

That is just a sample, the previous point is so important, a man seeks a friend first in home, if he can't find him, he seeks him on the cafe, and mostly he finds him and stop to care for home anymore

man is not in need for a beautiful furniture piece or a clown to make him laugh when he is upset, he needs someone to share life with him, with all the meaning of sharing life like in sweet and sour, in good and bad times to understand, listen and love him.

I love the stuff they say in the USA in the marriage when the priest talks to each of them and ask him a few questions that represent the soul of the real marriage, or say how it should be.

life is not that materialistic, it has other sides too, we have to take care that very little emotional and conceptual details are much more important than a southand materialistic thing in the relation between a married couple

Thursday, August 25, 2005


She turned off the siren of the ambulance while approaching the search point and moved slowly until she stopped the car in a long line

She is used to cross this search point all the time as violence always there, that is why she joined the red cresset anyway

Long rows of cars around her, no she won’t do her mission here, a lot of innocent civilians around her, she can’t do it here she thought

She crossed the point; she didn’t stay long as she used the professional card she had to cross.
She looked long to the card with the words written in bold font over it:

“Red cresset medical organization” just with her name, for the first time she noticed it didn’t include the religion or the country she works in!!

On a distance from the search point she stopped, she walked into the settlement trying not to draw much attention to her presence, it is hunting time then!

They were moving everywhere, with their kids, a kid waved to her, he looked so similar to her kid, and she left him with her blind grandmother

a cafe is a good target always, she moved to it while her mind is full of pictures, the ambulance, her friends, the flag, her self while trying to stop the blood of southands of the victims with no use, she tried hard to retrieve her kid’s image but all the time she saw that other kid in her mind waving for her and smiling!

She hit into that old man on front of the cafe, she threw the bomb inside the cafe and in a second it exploded…

With a lot of blood around her, screams and shouts, she wanted to go and help stop the bleeding but she couldn’t this time…

It was her own blood

Wednesday, August 24, 2005

To Master or not to Master

This is the question I can't reach an answer these days, should I go for post graduates or not?

I started recently to think of starting post graduates this year directly as I am still used for the nonsense of our beloved faculty -Engineering, communications- and already used on the stress of the exams and that stuff, also I work with one of the most important prof of the post graduates in Networks

just consider the following facts before you give me your opinion (I do need your opinion, need it badly)

  • I hate studying for long
  • I love networks and programming
  • I work in networks field with prof that teach in the post graduate
  • I work 8 hours 5 days per week
  • I love to live my life, this includes reading, writing, listening to music and other stuff
  • I have possible military service in the next febreuary (50% possible)
  • I have 7 days to decide or I will miss the chance to start this year
  • 2 of my friends already will start this year, another one may start the next year

writing these facts in points alone can be of great help :)

Now what do you think? can you help me ?


Tuesday, August 23, 2005

Then you look at me :)

Life and cry
Live and die
Life is a dream we are dreaming
Day by day
I find my way
Look for the soul
And the meaning

Then you look at me
And I always see
What I have been searching for

I am lost as can be
Then you look at me
And I am not lost anymore

Dynamic religion

I was hesitant to write about a religious subject, but after a while, I understood that this time it is not related to Islam only and not even to religion only, so I guess no problem to write in it

The classical dilemma between the religious people and scientific persons is the way the orders of god should be handled and the meaning of the religion

The religious persons came up with the rule: “if there is no text, no more searches should be made”!! This statement, while I partially agree with it, participated to delay our research actions for decades and pulled us back for hundreds of years

When I tell you “go to the bank” how many meanings could you have for this statement?
Here comes the rule of the context, if I tell you that and you want to deposit money, so it is actually an order to deposit the money, even if you don’t go yourself and send someone

If it comes in a Saturday then it doesn’t make any sense, and more likely to be like kidding with you.

Now, the orders of god are fixed, they don’t change all over the years and decades, it is not negociatable to say it changes, the question is, how do you understand it?

We are humans, which mean our understanding for something is always incomplete, by time things and events add up to our understating for each line.

I don’t want to talk for long, but in brief, what I do think is, all the time we should consider the religion orders and try to understand why What should we do And what is the best based on the current context not the previous context. Nothing is over consideration, as long as we consider it carefully studying the previous causes and taking into consideration the current situation, we can come with the best solutions and answers to the current time and move on in life.

No need to state that church and Islamic religious hard minded persons have held humanity from proceeding in life for long time with the name of god

In the last few days a big fight came about “al hegaab” or the hair cover for women, based on the previous context some came up with the idea that it is not required anymore, that is because they based it on the environment conditions (I strongly don’t agree with that) but I do agree with their way in research, they just need to understand more in the cause of it, the religious one and start thinking of it again

Sunday, August 21, 2005

Blogging Type

Your Blogging Type Is Thoughtful and Considerate
You're a well liked, though underrated, blogger.
You have a heart of gold, and are likely to blog for a cause.
You're a peaceful blogger - no drama for you!
A good listener and friend, you tend to leave thoughtful comments for others.


Your generations is the worst, you are a silly generation, you have no real interests, you always blame the circumstances, you are irresponsible generation

Those are all crimes the previous generation throw in our faces all the time, no need here to state that they were in the same situation like us and were being blamed like us or even more.

First don’t misunderstand me , I don’t blame the previous generation because I didn’t live their time and I am just stating facts that makes me feel the future will be better and we should be optimistic.

We are not bad, actually I believe we are so good, our generation is much better from its previous, and I will justify why:

The previous generation, that one which received Egypt right after the war of 1973, what did he have?

He had better economical situations based on pure facts, no need to say that the simple governmental employee was able to live with his salary only and send all his children to schools until they graduate from university
more freedom: no matter what you think of the era of sadat, you can’t deny that the margin of freedom was much wider that time
Egypt was open to the whole world, the new strategies of the government was to allow every kind of building and investment in any field

Now let us judge what happened:

1. great deal of the previous generation solved his problems by traveling to the gulf and making money (that is not a crime)
2. when they returned to their mother lands either they worked to import goods or they saved their money in banks (great crime, it helped just to raise the prices and didn’t help to increase the production in any way)
3. they didn’t act to maintain freedom or develop it, they didn’t care for the political issues, and they even encouraged us (because they care for us of course) not to be part of the political life in Egypt, the result is we live in a country that we don’t know a thing about
4. in the last 30 years, the bribe became a very common thing, corruption is everywhere and somehow they are all responsible, if not by getting bribes then it is by paying it, if not then by shutting up when they see it

In the next post I will write the counter situation of our poor generation


Saturday, August 20, 2005

Fall up

"I can't help falling in love.... with you"

you always fall "down" but in love, you just fall "up"

Me during work hours

Work for long? Look at me then!!

Sunday, August 14, 2005

legends of the Nile: part1

They say Egypt is the mother lands of magic, to be more specific let me say, black magic

The old legend speaks about a young pharaoh who was in a cruise with some of his maids in the river Nile in his ship

Suddenly, his best maid lost her bracelet in the water, she got very upset and the pharaoh was really angry and worried, he called for his priests and his wizards, asking them to help, most of them announced that they can’t do a thing, some others claimed they can get it back in few hours, one of them came up and spoke saying he can get it in few moments, without he gets wet!!!

The pharaoh let him do it as you may expect, he used his magic powers and in moments the river turned into two different sides of water with a huge dry gab in between, the man came down and picked up the bracelet from the bottom of the river and gave it back to the girl

We will have other legends soon, Egypt is the land of magic legends and they are really interesting!

Saturday, August 13, 2005

love signs

Have you ever been in love?
You could touch the moon light

The previous part was from a very famous song for celine dion, have you ever been in love?

Have you ever tested to feel the presence of someone you love without the need to see him or hear him? Yes that is true; you can feel him and know you will find him/her when you turn around!!

Have you ever tasted to be away from this one for a while, say a few weeks then you meet again? Have you tasted the kiss of the eye when you first meet and the symphonies of the heart when you feel the presence of his heart beside yours?

If you haven’t tasted all that before, then you have never known love, you have been just faking it like most of our life, love is known by its signs.

Psychology again: the need for nonsense

Returning to one of my best interests, psychology: D

In the past, in the critical exam times, I used to separate my different work hours with games and I used to do that almost every 2 hours that I stay for 15 or 20 mins playing games

I did great effort to convince my parents that this was important to clear my mind and useful to concentrate again in what I am doing

I have to note here that I wasn’t myself convinced enough with that, I was just telling them that to escape work for those minutes without them blaming me all the time

Later I came to read some articles about the “need for nonsense” which is the need to do something that doesn’t use your mind in between the times extensively using your mind, the only change was the direct remark that the separator should be a “silly stuff” from the point of view of mind usage, that is when I started to play “chicken invaders” and “worms” as a way to escape all big thoughts and ideas for few minutes

They say that the same need affects in common life, like in the time of Vietnam War, many silly plays that talks about just nonsense were introduced and had a very huge popularity.

Finally, I wanted to say that they say that our life is full of pressures now and that wave of “nonsense shows” is starting to blow again.

PS: the previous information were collected from TV shows and articles on the internet


I always said I am interested in politics that is because I considered the definition of politics as it should be not as it is really is

I here announce I was wrong, politics is no more my major interest, it is society now my major interest

Friday, August 12, 2005

My Bloginality

You are an INFP!
As an INFP, you are Intraverted, iNtuative, Feeling , Perceiving.
This makes your primary focus on Introverted Feeling with Extraverted Intuition.

This is defined as a NF personality, which is part of Carl Jung's Idealist (Identity Seeking) type, and more specifically the Healers or Idealist

As a weblogger, you have wonderful words to express your feelings because of your idealism. Because you don't like conflict, you may be likely to make one list of links and leave it for a long time without updating for fear of offending.

My Bloginality is INFP!!!

Tuesday, August 09, 2005

Q & A

Question: Where can you guarantee a fair trial for Saddam Hussin?

Answer: On Mars 100 years from now!!

Sunday, August 07, 2005

Dresden, step of madness

A few weeks before the end of World War Two, Winston Churchill drafted a memorandum to the British Chiefs of Staff:

'It seems to me that the moment has come when the question of bombing of German cities simply for the sake of increasing the terror, though under other pretexts, should be reviewed ... The destruction of Dresden remains a serious query against the conduct of Allied bombing.'

Out of 28,410 houses in the inner city of Dresden, 24,866 were destroyed. An area of 15 square kilometers was totally destroyed, among that: 14,000 homes, 72 schools, 22 hospitals, 19 churches, 5 theaters, 50 bank and insurance companies, 31 department stores, 31 large hotels, 62 administration buildings as well as factories such as the Ihagee camera works. In total there were 222,000 apartments in the city. 75,000 of them were totally destroyed, 11,000 severely damaged, 7,000 damaged, 81,000 slightly damaged.

Overall, Anglo-American bombing of German cities claimed ca. 400,000 civilian lives.
Earlier reputable estimates varied from 25,000 to more than 60,000 dead, but historians now view around 25,000-35,000 as the likely range

Stairs of madness

60 years ago the first step in the stairs of madness was built by the US army when they dropped the bomb on Hirochima
It is said that Hirochima bomb was of no real need at that time and the japanese army was to surrender anyway

The same applies for the attack on Dresden, the big peaceful town that was the center of art and beauty in germany and may be in europe too

The two neuclear boms on Japan and the attack on dresden were factors to end the war quickly but with what cost!!

The attack on hirochima and nagazaki casused massive distruction and loss in humans, the effects lasted for many years, what made things much worse was the lack of knowledge of what was the used weapon for the attack and how to react with its injuries and hence, many thousands of the injuried died in hospitals (I will not describe the cause of their death here because it is a very painful thing and if I describe it you will hate the day you visited my blog :(

The attack on dresden was done in two waves of bombers, heavy bombers attacked the city in the first wave with a horrible amount of high charge bombs, the city was distroyed completely before the second wave arrive, when the second wave arrived the found a heave thick smoke could over the city but they didn’t decide to cancel and return, they threw their charge over the smoke coulds ending the small tiny hope left in finding survivers !!!

USA, Russia, China, France, Israel, Pakistan and India….

All those countries now own neuclear weapons, the old ones looks beside the new ones like kid rockets, in an american expirement on a new bomb a whole island vanised without a trace, in another one in Russia the scientist were thrown few meters away by the explosition that took place 60 miles away from their point and they felt their suits burning

That is the second step in the stair of madness, the third was to invent bombs that kills people without making destruction, they are now directing their intention to humans specifically!!

What will be the next step, will we see the effect of one of the new steps of madness soon some place on earth??

Sometimes I think that is funny, humans used to fight against nature but when they found nature not dangerous anymore they start to fight against eachother inventing everyday a new way to end their existance on this planet!!

Friday, August 05, 2005


Don't get scared! this is not one of our faculty quizes, it is a simple direct quiz I got from lasto adri

Three names you go by:

Three screen names you have had:
Black Knight
Free soul

Three parts of your heritage:

Three things that scare you:
feeling unnormal
result time

Three of your everyday essentials:
checking all my mails & Blogs
Listening to fairoz or celine
watching the starts

Three things you are wearing right now:
shoe :)

Two truths and a lie:
I am weird
I miss my friends
I can speak french

Three physical things about the opposite sex that appeal to you:
Eyes [windows of the soul]
soul [sometimes you can see the soul of a person spreading around him/her]

Three things you just can’t do:
Play handball
Be an astronaute
stand in the same location for 2 seconds

Three of your favorite hobbies:
reading about history
writing stories
hanging out with/without my friends in the late night (after 2 am) & watch sunrise

Three things you want to do really badly right now:
have lunch (I am starving)
Do my work before I get fired
post this text before lasto adri kill me (if cold doesn’t do it first )

Three places you want to go on vacation:
luxor (yes, I have never been there :( !!! )

Three things you want to do before you die:
make a company & a family
publish something
make a little change in egypt for the better

Three ways I am stereotypically a man:
I am getting boald
I am very nervous
I have to chave every morning

Three ways I am stereotypically a boy:
I love cartoons
I love kids’ stories (I have a kid’s wild imagination)
I love computer games

Three people who have to take this quiz:
Ahmed el said

Wednesday, August 03, 2005

General announcement

I am so sick!! I caught cold, the worst case you may ever see :(

You can see my big nose from a mile shining in red while my voice coughing is like a train :::(

I will be inactive for a few days :(


Monday, August 01, 2005

Ooooooooh I Finally made it :)

Dear all: D

This is a great day for humanity :)

Finally, and after 5 years of suffering in the faculty, I made it, my result just appeared and I got Good grade (this has a longer story because I am willing to go for networks post graduate)

I’m writing this with a greeaaaaaaaaaaat wish in my heart that all of you did will, will do will or already done well in previous years :)

I also announce that I have forgiven all those who hurt me in the last 5 years, I came to a man who long ago made a big fight with me and we shake hands for the first time, it is a time for forgiveness now, hope you all forgive me if I ever made a mistake :(

I also thank all of you who stood beside me or even on front of me:D

I A M .. H A P P Y


Andre Agassi (USA)

I don't know why I love this player, but he is my favourite tennis player!

checking his record today while I got nothing to do - like usual - in work, I found the following data :

Singles Titles:
Double Titles:
Prize Money:

didn't I tell you? ok, I do love tennis but I don't play it, I do love handball for different reasons as I used to play it in the past before I get hurt and stop playing it (I was very young and I decided to stop, I do regret that ) :(