Thursday, September 15, 2005

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This is my last post for a while, I will go disappear for about 10 or 15 days, not because I will be so busy, and not because I will travel because I can always check my blogs from any place on earth.

Actually it is because I feel so confused, I need to arrange things, I may travel somewhere to arrange things.

I may have to kill some memories, some emotions and some part of the past, I will play my card that these memories represent less than 50% of my soul and will kill them, I will know later if this would kill me completely or not

I know I sound strange, but since when did I seem clear? When did any of you know me right? When did I talk to anyone about the past, about the life I had with its pain and joy?

I know I was so closed and so mysterious, I know I was so shy sometimes and not wanting to express myself, all that have good reasons, and I can’t help, that is just me!

For you, forgive me if I hurt you once, forgive me if you expected me to be there but I couldn’t, and above all forgive me for what I have to do.

It’s you who could help, it is you who could end this madness and this mess but it seems it was never in your plans!!

I don’t blame you, it is hard enough without blaming each other, it is hard enough without reminding each other with what we could do but we didn’t, and what we could not do but we did!!

I just want to tell you, I have to go this way, things are stronger and I can’t feel any support, I have to go try to collect the rest of my soul


FROGGY said...

this is the best thing to do.. just go and forget and be with yourself..
waiting for ur comeback.

Lasto-adri *Blue* said...

God b with you ya freesoul.
i truely wish u all the best
and btw: i am leaving as well :)