5th of June

5th of June... start of 1967 War... a day to remember, not a day to ignore

Acceptance

Some things in life can't be fought against... some things are there, and just there, there is nothing you can do about them, you only have to accept them and cure your wounds, learn how to live and go on just for a vague hope that things may be different some other time, that god will once give you his mercy and bless you some time in your life...

many times i get on the verge of surrendering to life, surrendering to the flow of humans and be just another one in the river, yet something in me keeps me away, something that is getting weaker and weaker everyday but still there

something that tells me that may be someday things change, tomorrow, next year or in the next life

something that tells me that if i surrender, then i am already dead

Mood

Feeling more lonely than I ever had in my life... with all the friends and half friends I have, can't find a single person that I would feel comfortable to tell what I have or what I feel

Decisions

Taking one of the most hard decision in my life... the kind of decisions that whenever you take, you never look back, knowing nothing about the future, living just with dreams and fragments of thoughts and emotions...

completely like stepping on the clouds... were you don't see your feet nor can feel the ground, but moved with a strange motivation, is it destiny? I don't know but all i know is that I have to do this step, I want to do this step, right now, that way, as crazy as it might look, as unexpected as it might feel, just do it.

Just words

- sometimes you do have to do the mistake to learn, but doing the same mistake
twice has nothing to do with learning, it only has something to do with either stupidity or denial.

- in every person you will find something that you love, but you only stick to the persons that don't have any of the things you can't stand

- marriage may be the best and holiest human bonds.
unfortunately this only applies for true marriage, which doesn't almost exist

- if your love partner is not really paying attention to your inner stuff then he most probably only loves his own reflection in your eyes.

The cave man

Once upon a time there was a cave man, the man that lived so safe and
secure in his cave, away from the wildness outside, but there always was something missing...

One day he decided to go out, search for it, fill in the missing parts of his soul, all he wanted was a live and a real love... he didn't search for glory, didn't search for profit or success or career, all he ever wanted was a calm life with passion and emotions around

Now the cave man is back to his cave, not just failing to find any, but loosing alot of what he already had, loosing a lot of mind & soul peace, loosing a lot of his innocence

In his cave he returned, shutting all the doors and trying to put the parts left of his soul all together

Sharing

Sharing in our lives has a different taste in each phase, and each phase has its unique kind of sharing.

0 – 12 years: sharing is with family, you share joy, sadness and events all with family
13 – 23 Years: sharing is mostly with friends, sharing with family still exist but this phase is for friends, without them sharing has no meaning and you would feel alone

24 – 34 Years: sharing is with your lover, sharing has its unique taste that without it everything seems incomplete, each single joy and each single experience seems missing an important element

35 - … : sharing is with family again, this time the family you created

sharing types overlap but in each phase, if you couldn't grab the phase type of sharing, and with all the ppl in the world around you and with all the sharing of the world you would still feel lonely

Harvest Moon

Have you ever noticed that the moon looks bigger and more colorful than usual??

How you ever watched the amazing rise or set for a big reddish moon? Was it really bigger than usual?

Bigger moons in the sky are a very usual phenomenon that most of as watched multiple times but rarely questions for the reasons!!

Amazingly enough; this phenomenon has no well defined reason!! It was commonly thought that this is an optical illusions where the moon looks bigger than usual when it is low in the sky where trees and buildings can be in the foreground making the mind establish a comparison, that yields to viewing it to be bigger than usual.

Yet recent researches show that bigger moons also looks bigger if you view it from a plane in the sky, where nothing in the foreground or the background but clouds!

Harvest moons are a special case of bigger moons, it obtained its name from old tradition to use nights with harvest moons to continue working in fields after sun set, the reason for that is that harvest moons rise in sky very shortly after sun-set giving enough light to continue whatever work you were doing, old civilizations used this opportunity and named it harvest moon.

But what makes a harvest moon looks reddish? The fact that the moon at this period looks lower in the sky makes its light travels longer distance in our earth atmosphere circles, which distracts larger amounts of its light of different colors, yet red color component always travels straight ahead to your eyes giving it the distinguished red color for harvest moons.

One of the amazing facts about harvest moons is that it provide enough light that will enable you to view a book clearly, yet you won't be able to read a single word inside although the book will seem having enough light !! the reason is in the nature of light received its self that the eye can't utilize to distinguish characters !!

Living in a crowded city, you may never watch a harvest moon and could fully test those facts, lucky me, I witnessed a harvest moon while living in the desert and could watch the amazing huge reddish moon face enlightening the black space in the desert.

Unbreak My Heart

Don't leave me in all this pain
Don't leave me out in the rain
Come back and bring back my smile
Come and take these tears away
I need your arms to hold me now
The nights are so unkind
Bring back those nights when I held you beside me

Unbreak my heart
Say you'll love me again
Undo this hurt you caused
When you walked out the door
And walked outta my life
Uncry these tears
I cried so many nights
Unbreak my heart, my heart

Take back that sad word good-bye
Bring back the joy to my life
Don't leave me here with these tears
Come and kiss this pain away
I can't forget the day you left
Time is so unkind
And life is so cruel without you here beside me

Ohh, oh
Don't leave me in all this pain
Don't leave me out in the rain
Bring back the nights when I held you beside me

Unbreak my
Unbreak my heart, oh baby
Come back and say you love me
Unbreak my heart
Sweet darlin'
Without you I just can't go on
Can't go on